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Is this what life is like?

Because I didn't ask to be born.

Name:
blancpage
Birthdate:
8 June 1977
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External Services:
  • blancpage@livejournal.com
I'm complicated, over-emotional, melodramatic, a person of extremes - perhaps this description is more of a warning sign to those who decide to associate with me, whether it be casual or more. Don't get me wrong, I'm not trying to push people away before they take a step towards me, but on the other hand, I tend to sabotage relationships. In case you were wondering, no, I don't do it on purpose. It's often difficult for me to be conscious of what I'm doing, and I may not even have any control over it. Which is ironic sometimes. It's difficult being a control freak, and obsessive-compulsive, too. Basically what you see and read is what you get. I am never fake and I do my best to remain open-minded and open-hearted to people, whether they are friends, strangers, or family. I expect this of others as well; and in myself even more.

I have a lot of medical conditions, one of which includes a digestive disorder called Irritable Bowel Syndrome, which makes it difficult or impossible to enjoy foods that I used to, like real cheese and beef, for example. I can sometimes get away with some things that are hard on my digestion, but mostly, I have to stick to most substitutions for dairy, egg, red meat, and various other products. It makes shopping, cooking, etc., very expensive and somewhat inconvenient. I won't go into the other medical problems, the list is too long and well, too complex.
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